back in end of 2014, so many things could happened in a year!

Okay Dec 2014, so here I am, migrated to new country. Again.
It has been 3 and a half month I am here in China. Without ability to communicate in Chinese. But yes, here I am. People asking why I am here and curious how I live here without knowing Chinese. Yes. My self also asking the same question to me. Why I am here and ridiculously without knowing the languages.

Honestly, struggling with loneliness, made me came back here in this blog. Surprisingly, my own writing from like mostly 2-3 years ago could help myself to reflect and gave me strength!!
Read back, I also realized that I faced the similar situation back there, when I first moved to SG, in my first 4-6 months. Loneliness and felt lost.
Same case. Same old. Different location. Different age.

Yes, I must admit that the 4th year of my life in SG, it has been changed so much compared to the 1st year. In last year, I had so much fun and friends, and income, and even I had girlfriend who just left me being single again on last week.

Then, somehow it gives me hope to know that this loneliness and lost feeling just happened because of the new place, new people, new environment, changing from a relationship to be single again.
And hope that it will be better faster this time! I don’t want to wait until 2 years till I find true friend or girlfriend, please… 😀 Hope it can be just happened tomorrow!

Okay.. I must also admit that when the time of being lonely, I do closer to God. Everything I wrote and read was about God. Then I tend to forget Him when my life was okay. Even worse I don’t even care about Him when I was with my last girlfriend. I am sorry God.. 😦
Maybe this time God really caught me again, to have nothing, to have nobody, so I can be nearer to Him again and read and write a lot? Yes.
Hope I can do better this time. And still. I ask for partner to live this journey again.

Yup.. let us continue this journey again, after a while I paused.

Let us make better journey right now. End of 2014. Soon to be 2015. New year, new hope.
Above all. don’t lose HOPE!! 🙂

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Someday by Nina (Cover)

Someday someone’s gonna love me, gonna take your place..
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Someday you’ll gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i won’t even be there 

I’ll be happy somewhere 

Even if i can’t

I know
You dont really see my worth
You think your the last girl  on earth
Well i’ve got news for you
I know i’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me 

The way, i want you to need me 

Someday, someone’s gonna take your place 

One day i’ll forget about you 

You’ll see, i won’t even miss you 

Someday, someday 

But now
I know you can’t tell
I’m down,and i’m not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won’t have to cry
Sweet goodbye

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Sing this song from deep down in my heart.

Years by years on my life’s journey has gone by, still have this damn feeling.

Then I have to force my self, and have to tell my self that

SOMEDAY, I FORGET ABOUT U, I WON’T EVEN MISS U

someday, and it won’t take long.. won’t take long..

Excuse my English :D

Yeah readers..

Please excuse my horrible English 😀

When you read my blog, u’ll find a great amount of grammatical errors and modificated vocab. Hahahahaaaaaaaaa..

WHooopppzzzz :p

Then also I couldn’t write a nice sentence, not even a long article as the expert writers or bloggers.

I’ll always do improvement! 😀

Hope u can still enjoy and understand what I’m talking about. Haha.

1 book for 1 month

One of my 2011 resolutions is: – 1 month, at least read 1 book-

January: Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom

End of the month status: not finished yet 😦

Tried harder to finish the book and to be better in next month! Yeah! 😀

PH

Singapore. Jan 31, 2011

 

Allright! Tumorow has already the end of February.. 😀

And guess what, I believe you can guess it!

Yes, even the January one haven’t finished. I even didn’t touch it!

Ooo nooo.. what happen with my life, terrible, right?!

Never give up to try be better in next month.

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The Journey is About to Begin..

 

 

First month in 2011..

Great time to begin this journey.

 

After a long long time struggled in my head, finally this blog is come out. I don’t know yet what is the main target of creating this blog. I just know, I have to make it, and by doing the first step, the rest is going to follow.

By hoping that this little journey could make a big influence to even a little thing in this world, I start it by faith.

Honestly, I am not a good writer. I cannot write a good sentence and my english is a mess. But let’s try, to make it not perfect, but useful and can be used as God’s blessing for you all.

Alright, lets begin our journey, hope can start soon with a good story and will continue until reach it purpose.

 

PH

Singapore, January 16, 2011.